PeedarberdeW driving me crazy. i&r and OP. gahhh. shall take a break andsay a irritating story that happened:/ or maybe not irritating.
zk wanted to see my i&r. and i deleted it in the morning. so i went to search for it in my email. cuz i sent it to mshuang on satuday night and i was waiting for her reply. and when i went to my sent items, I REALISED I DIDNT ATTACH THE FILE. and the thing is i deleted it in the morning. AND I HAD TO REDO EVERYTHING. luckily i realised it. IN TIME. or i'll probably be dead on friday.

cant wait for friday. then FLORENCENIGHTINGALE, BYEBYE! haha



Hero - Nickelback
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
I am so high. I can hear heaven.
Oh but heaven, no heaven dont hear me.

And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.

Someone told me love will ALL save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling
That world never came.

And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.

Now that the world isnt ending, its love that Im sending to you.
It isnt the love of a hero, and thats why I fear it wont do.



meet my new love yo.


hahah. been camping at home watching hana yori dango( meteor garden in jap) hahaha. tht's where i found my new lovee. hahah. SHUN OGURI(:
but of course not forgetting dear WUZUN. who just went back to tw ytd(:
and so this is a must watch. cause zun is in it. (:
(: (: (:



the story msleong told us about:
The Daffodil Principle.
Several times my daughter had telephoned to say, "Mother, you must come see the daffodils before they are over." I wanted to go, but it was a two-hour drive from Laguna to Lake Arrowhead. "I will come next Tuesday, " I promised, a little reluctantly, on her third call.
Next Tuesday dawned cold and rainy. Still, I had promised, and so I drove there. When I finally walked into Carolyn's house and hugged and greeted my grandchildren, I said, "Forget the daffodils, Carolyn! The road is invisible in the clouds and fog, and there is nothing in the world except you and these children that I want to see bad enough to drive another inch!"
My daughter smiled calmly and aid, "We drive in this all the time, Mother." "Well, you won't get me back on the road until it clears, and then I'm heading for home!" I assured her. "I was hoping you'd take me over to the garage to pick up my car." "How far will we have to drive?" "Just a few blocks," Carolyn said. "I'll drive. I'm used to this." After several minutes, I had to ask, "Where are we going? This isn't the way to the garage!" "We're going to my garage the long way, Carolyn smiled, "by way of the daffodils." "Carolyn," I said sternly, "please turn around." "It's all right, Mother, I promise. You will never forgive yourself if you miss this experience." After about twenty minutes, we turned onto a small gravel road and I saw a small church. On the far side of the church, I saw a hand-lettered sign that read, "Daffodil Garden."

We got out of the car and each took a child's hand, and I followed Carolyn down the path. Then, we turned a corner of the path, and looked up and gasped. Before me lay the most glorious sight. It looked as though someone had taken a great vat of gold and poured it down over the mountain peak and slopes. The flowers were planted in majestic, swirling patterns-great ribbons and swaths of deep orange, white, lemon yellow, salmon pink, saffron, and butter yellow. Each different-colored variety was planted as a group so that it swirled and flowed like its own river with its own unique hue.

There were five acres of flowers. "But who has done this?" I asked Carolyn. "It's just one woman," Carolyn answered. "She lives on the property. That's her home." Carolyn pointed to a well kept A frame house that looked small and modest in the midst of all that glory.We walked up to the house. On the patio, we saw a poster. "Answers to the Questions I Know You Are Asking" was the headline. The first answer was a simple one. "50,000 bulbs," it read. The second answer was, "One at a time, by one woman. Two hands, two feet, and very little brain." The third answer was, "Began in 1958." There it was, The Daffodil Principle. For me, that moment was a life changing experience.

I thought of this woman whom I had never met, who, more than forty years before, had begun-one bulb at a time-to bring her vision of beauty and joy to an obscure mountain top. Still, just planting one bulb at a time, year after year, had changed the world. This unknown woman had forever changed the world in which she lived. She had created something of ineffable (indescribable) magnificence, beauty, and inspiration.

The principle her daffodil garden taught is one of the greatest principles of celebration. That is, learning to move toward our goals and desires one step at a time-often just one baby-step at a time-and learning to love the doing, learning to use the accumulation of time. When we multiply tiny pieces of time with small increments of daily effort, we too will find we can accomplish magnificent things. We can change the world.

"It makes me sad in a way," I admitted to Carolyn. "What might I have accomplished if I had thought of a wonderful goal thirty-five or forty years ago and had worked away at it 'one bulb at a time' through all those years. Just think what I might have been able to achieve!" My daughter summed up the message of the day in her usual direct way. "Start tomorrow," she said.

It's so pointless to think of the lost hours of yesterdays. The way to make learning a lesson of celebration instead of a cause for regret is to only ask, "How can I put this to use today?"

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car,when we are able to go on a nice vacation, or when we retire. The truth is there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now,when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting...

Until your car or home is paid off
Until you get a new car or home
Until your kids leave the house
Until you go back to school
Until you finish school
Until you lose 10 lbs.
Until you gain 10 lbs.
Until you get married
Until you get a divorce
Until you have kids
Until you retire
Until summer
Until spring
Until winter
Until fall
Until you die


There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination. So work like you don't need money, Love like you've never been hurt, And, dance like no one's watching.

by:Jaroldeen Asplund Edwards



i miss them. rivadelgarda'04.
sop2 lovin'
(:







i've talked to many people, friends, family and teachers. and they've made me realise how much i have missed. or in the simpler way. how much time i've wasted. by getting retained, means that im not being able to be people im most comfortable with.

'when your friends go to university, you are still stuck in JC struggling for your A's'
'when your friends are having fun in university orientation, you are still stuck in JC'
'when your friends meet their primary/secondary school friends in university, you cant'
'when your friends are getting their first pay, you are still studying in the university'

these few lines have been stuck in my mind today. this is so much that i've lost.

will there be a miracle, that the school will give me a chance to try again thru the re-tests? will they give me the chance to do so?
will there be a miracle, will i not be retained?
will there be a miracle, that i can still sing with the choir?

im trying my very best not to be moody and just look on the bright side. but once im out of school,
it happens.

(xinyi&feli, thanks for that small little talk we had. i definately felt muchmuch better after talking to you guys. & feli, i rmb and still do LOVE the song(: )

so i wont give up
no i wont break down
sooner than it seems life turns around
and i will be stong
even if it all goes wrong
when im standing in the dark i'll still believe
someone's watching over me




the results are out. and the verdict is: im going to get retained. okay i'll just have face it. i AM going to retain and i AM going to lose everything. my friends, choir, everything. and i guess, including my freedom. my mum's probably to ground me. so no more shopping no more fun. but im not blaming anyone but myself. i didnt study hard enough for the promos. so i'll hv to face the consequences. i hope i can pick myself up quickly and think what im gg to do next: to study reallyreallyreally hard for next yr & score good grades. i cant let anyone down anymore.
and for choir, i really hope my mum wont make me quit. but, but, its impossible. its not going to happen. i really dont wna leave the choir. but have no choice. i have to. cause im being made to. choir's the place where i can really enjoy myself. to be with a group of people whom i can talk to, cry with, have lots of fun with. and most importantly, to do what we love: sing and make music. these will all be taken away from me. quiting choir, joining some cca i hv no interest in and being in a class that i knw no one, will probably make me hate everything. but do i have a choice? NO. cause this is life. nothing's fair. we have to face the consequences. ohwell. i just pray there's a miracle of letting me stay in choir. i'll promise i'll study really hard. (but i think its highly impossible that it'll happen) ohwell, i will have to just. live with it.
i guess all that i said bfr the results are gna true. 1) i'll be sitting in the esplande hall watching the choir perform next yr. 2) i will have to send them off at the airport next year and pray hard they'll will get gold in the trip to italy. no importa la distancia.




steamboat was fun with the cheenagang(: but with a few ppl missing dear gwen and mulang haizi ta ma. everyone were soooo full. had choir with the vocal consort bfr that. and they are REALLY REALLY REALLY x100000 GOOD. the minute i heard the guys, i was like OH MH GOD. there super good. the sops are super powerful as well. i hvnt sang in a choir like that bfr. it feels. GOOD (:
okay i hope i can hv a good night's rest today.
tmr=tuesday=results=hell=RETAIN! ):
ughh how i wish time can STOP now. i dont wnt tmr to comeee.
(but deep inside i knw i have to face reality ohwell)



im dreading tuesday. OHWELL.
met up with xy & rach for lunch. like FINALLY. 3 of us hvnt go together for a LONGLONG time. i miss them so much. we ate and talked ate and talked. then we left to do stupid PWWWWW. okay its not that stupid actually cause my grp is the fun grp! lol. so off to joanne's hse. when it was dinner time, we realised ms HUANGWANXIN. no i mean MRS mulang was pregnant! she happily said, 'oh the food im eating is for mulang's son!' *finger pointes to her womb* okay so mulang hai zi ta ma! take caree of your baby. in 9 wks, we'll see him/her. (1week=1month) hahaha.
wednesday cbp at ecp. was fun! was i was so proud of myself for making 3 staircases( 1 was destroyed by suxin): ) i sat there for one hr perfecting my stairs resulting me to get giddy andget sunburnt. i can see 2 distinct lines on my hand now. BLACK & WHITE. stayed at jalene's hse the day bfr and i must say I LOVE HER HOUSE! and ROMEO! he's so cuteeeee.
choir later then STEAMBOAT WITH THE CHEENA GANG! YAY(:

36/07 sandcastle

presenting to you the STAIRS hahaha




choir rehearsal for farewell today. i was telling them if i retain, i will be singing for them on stage nxt yr. for their farewell.(provided i dont quit choir) haii. okay nvm i shall look on the bright side of life(:
had lunch and dinner with the usual choir people. hahaha and we talked alot! lol.
okay tmr's back to school of pw:/ and YAY im staying ovr at jalene's tmr! sandcastle building on wednesday! hahahah cant wait! (:

i will enjoy myself to the fullest this week. i must.



promos are over. but i dont knw whether i shld be sad. or. happy. happy cause its FINALLY ovr. sad. cause i'll probably retain. or shld i say, i WILL. 101% sure. every paper was badly donee. even maths, the subj i had most confidence in. and now? ohwell i shall not think about it. wht's done is done. i shall enjoy myself this week and grieve ovr my results when they're back. i dont mind being retained(of course i hope not), but i dont wna be forced to quit choir cause im retaining. my mum's making me do so if i retain. choir is the place i find joy&fun in. i think making me quit choir equals to making my life in aj boring. making me quit choir may end up making me hate aj. i dont knw! i love the choir. ytd was the first practice after soo long. and i really looked forward to it. i miss the people, i missed the laughters, and of course... the music. ohwell. maybe i shld just enjoy the last few mnths in aj choir. okay shit why do i sound as if im gg to die like tmr. LOL! hahaha. okay i shall just pray i dont get reatined. hahaha
lust caution was niceeee! leehom was hot! lol.
iceskating is fun! (: (:


there can be miracles, when you believe
though hope is frail
its hard to kill
who knows what miracles, you can achieve
when you believe, somehow you will.
you will when you believe.