i've talked to many people, friends, family and teachers. and they've made me realise how much i have missed. or in the simpler way. how much time i've wasted. by getting retained, means that im not being able to be people im most comfortable with.

'when your friends go to university, you are still stuck in JC struggling for your A's'
'when your friends are having fun in university orientation, you are still stuck in JC'
'when your friends meet their primary/secondary school friends in university, you cant'
'when your friends are getting their first pay, you are still studying in the university'

these few lines have been stuck in my mind today. this is so much that i've lost.

will there be a miracle, that the school will give me a chance to try again thru the re-tests? will they give me the chance to do so?
will there be a miracle, will i not be retained?
will there be a miracle, that i can still sing with the choir?

im trying my very best not to be moody and just look on the bright side. but once im out of school,
it happens.

(xinyi&feli, thanks for that small little talk we had. i definately felt muchmuch better after talking to you guys. & feli, i rmb and still do LOVE the song(: )

so i wont give up
no i wont break down
sooner than it seems life turns around
and i will be stong
even if it all goes wrong
when im standing in the dark i'll still believe
someone's watching over me