the results are out. and the verdict is: im going to get retained. okay i'll just have face it. i AM going to retain and i AM going to lose everything. my friends, choir, everything. and i guess, including my freedom. my mum's probably to ground me. so no more shopping no more fun. but im not blaming anyone but myself. i didnt study hard enough for the promos. so i'll hv to face the consequences. i hope i can pick myself up quickly and think what im gg to do next: to study reallyreallyreally hard for next yr & score good grades. i cant let anyone down anymore.
and for choir, i really hope my mum wont make me quit. but, but, its impossible. its not going to happen. i really dont wna leave the choir. but have no choice. i have to. cause im being made to. choir's the place where i can really enjoy myself. to be with a group of people whom i can talk to, cry with, have lots of fun with. and most importantly, to do what we love: sing and make music. these will all be taken away from me. quiting choir, joining some cca i hv no interest in and being in a class that i knw no one, will probably make me hate everything. but do i have a choice? NO. cause this is life. nothing's fair. we have to face the consequences. ohwell. i just pray there's a miracle of letting me stay in choir. i'll promise i'll study really hard. (but i think its highly impossible that it'll happen) ohwell, i will have to just. live with it.
i guess all that i said bfr the results are gna true. 1) i'll be sitting in the esplande hall watching the choir perform next yr. 2) i will have to send them off at the airport next year and pray hard they'll will get gold in the trip to italy. no importa la distancia.