so yes, i can finally heave a sigh of relief.
what happened today in the hall, just made me rmb what happened last year. the exact same things. crying is just like a chain effect. when one starts, others too cries. it will end up with a whole bunch of us crying. and this, was what happened today.
when i saw them crying, i didnt know what to say/do to them to make them feel better. because i wasnt in the position to say anything. cause of the fact that what happened to them also happened to me. i know what it felt like. everyone just kept telling you its okay its okay its okay. but you yourself know that, ITS NOT OKAY. (ah well, i dont know what im saying, but you get my point) to me, what i'll need at this point of time, is to just have a friend by your side, even if she is not saying anything. you'll knw that at least, there's still someone by your side. or to have a big hug (yes cindy, your hugs rlly made me better)
alright, so to some of you out there ( you know who you are and if you're reading this,)
please, stay strong. there's no point crying over something that has already happened because you wont be able to change it. stand up on your feet and move on. this is not the end of the world. what you should think of, is what you want to accomplish in future. you dont want us to worry for you, so stay strong. work hard, for us, for the teachers, for your family, and most importantly for yourself (:
i think that this short span of 2 years AJ made be grow. alot, if i can say. ah i've alot to say, but today's not the day i'll rant. maybe tmr.
AH TMR. the day i've been waiting for. & the day i hope would never come.
& i suddenly miss my dear jacjac. hope she's doing fine.

thankyouverymuch, D. i knew you were watching over me.
so i wont give up
no i wont break down
sooner than it seems life turns around
and i will be strong
even if it all goes wrong
when im standing in the dark i'll still believe
someone's watching over me.
ilu.