it has been such a long time.
more than a year i think.
maybe its just me.
how i think maybe?
how i react to stuff maybe?
a certain part of me wants to just forget about it.
but the other part, just keeps telling me not to.
i dont know what i am doing.
not only that. everything actually.

i dont know exactly what i am doing.
its just that,
a moment i want to do sth.
but the next, i tell myself not to.
i am weird haha.

& stupid weird dreams again.
its all coming back :/

okay i dont know what im saying anymore.
i want to quickly go back to work tmr.
cause its when i can concentrate and not think about anything else (: