im not happy.
im not sad.
for a moment i think its fine.
the next moment, i dont think it is.
maybe i seem to be smiley and everything.
but deep down inside, im really really disappointed.
she seems to be okay with the grades, but i know deep down she's disappointed too.
she's just not showing cause she doesn't want to make me feel worse.
i know i've let down many people.
im really sorry.



In 48hrs, im gna see my Alevel results staring back into my face.
i haven't been sleeping well. i sleep late & wake up early.
& so, im down with a cold, having a sore throat and spiltting headache.
ayeee. i dont know why but i feel a bad omen.
my week didnt start out well too.
so....
& my mum went to ask some fortune teller, and he says i wont do very well.
:( :(
SHITXZZZZ.
so, im damn scared.

flu was really bad so i didnt go to work ytd.
but i managed to pull myself to go celebrate k's birthday.
SO HAPPY 19TH DEAR GIRL.

meeting the twin later.
then work from 130 to closing tmr.
THEN FRIDAY.
ok i think someone shld give me some sleeping pills.
so i can sleep thru today, tmr and friday morning.
wake up at 230pm on friday to see the results.
this 'waiting for results period' is killing me :/